I am extremely sad today. And have an overwhelming feeling of being alone. And normally I keep these feelings to myself in front of Arrine. But because of past replies and suggestions from friends and family, today I decided for Arrine to see my sadness. You have told me that it’s ok for our children to see us make mistakes and be emotional and have hard days. So I allowed that today.

While cuddling on the couch tonight, I turned to Arrine and said, “You know when you are sad and you cry Arrine? Mommy is sad today, so I am going to have a little cry.” And I did. Just snuggled her and cried.

Then she took my face between her small, pudgy hands and brought my head to hers so our foreheads were touching and she whispered to me in a singing voice, “When you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands…you happy now?”

As I write this, I am letting the tears run down my cheeks. From the sadness I feel so deeply and from the happiness that Arrine brings me. I love her so.

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