Without making these decisions consciously, I have started 2013 off with a positive, fresh, and hopeful day. An amm day.
I have always felt unsettled in a messy home, and amm was the same. I remember when in uni, I would have to have a clean and tidy room and house to be able to get any homework or studying done. And that’s how I was feeling lately – a bit scattered and unfocused because our home wasn’t clean. The last few days I have found time to get cleaning done here and there, but this morning I was able to vacuum and mop the entire house. That last thing that needed cleaning. Sigh….felt so good. The entire house was fresh and had a had a vibe ready for good things.
amm was fabulous at baking loaves. My favourite was probably her lemon loaf. No, wait. her zucchini loaf with walnuts. Nope. Wait. Maybe it was her banana bread with chocolate chips. Oh, I loved them all.
Today I made banana bread with chocolate chips. A quadruple batch. And I was able to make 4 loaves because I now have amm’s two loaf pans that I kept after she passed away, added to the two that I already had. Plus I had months of browning, frozen bananas that I have been collecting in my freezer ready for baking. I have been wanting to make banana bread for a long time now…and today was the day. It felt so good to get those old bananas out of my freezer and into something delicious and enjoyable. When I thought about it more, and over analyzed it, connecting it to the New Year, I felt like I was ridding myself of the old and unneeded and creating good things for me.
And I must mention that I love my KitchenAid stand mixer. And how I thought about amm doing all her baking without one. Because it makes my baking so much easier, it makes me appreciate all the time amm devoted to her time in the kitchen that much more.
Slow cooker pork tenderloin today. Final product was pulled pork poutine for supper.
A few months ago I bought fabric to make curtains for Arrine’s bedroom through etsy. My plan was to make the curtains before Christmas and surprise Arrine (sure, a 2 3/4 year old can get excited over curtains, right?), but the parcel was delayed and I received the material with only 2 weeks until Christmas. There was no way I was going to be able to make the curtains in time, but I was ok with that.
As amm taught me, I first washed the fabric and then ironed it, and today I was able to sew.
Arrine loves them. Because they are now a great hiding spot when she plays Hide and Seek.
All day I thought of amm. Not really specific memories. Just thinking of her. While cleaning. While baking. While prepping supper. While sewing.
What a fan-frickin-tastic way to start 2013.