I stumbled across some old emails at work today. I knew I shouldn’t have read any, but I did. Maybe I needed to *feel* something. It seems like I haven’t *felt* lately.

So I would click on a random subject title and scroll to the bottom and then read up. I did this a number of times. Some made me giggle. Others made me hurt. It would be so easy to choose to Clear my email history, just like you can Clear your computer’s internet history. Completely wipe out all memories – good and bad – so there is nothing left to remind you. But that isn’t who I am today. My history, filled with hurt, giggles & loss, creates who I am today.

So once I had felt enough, and didn’t want to feel anymore, I clicked out of the folder and had a little cry.

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